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[threeisapattern]

vienna slow down, you crazy child you're so ambitious for a juvenile but then if you're so smart, then tell me why are you still so afraid? I'll be good for all of the light that I shut out for all of the innocent things that I doubt for all of the bruises I've caused and the tears I'll be good, I'll be good losing your memory don't react the damage is done the police are coming too slow now I would have died I would have loved you all my life wake up, it's time, wake up just remember who I am in the morning the devil in my bloodstream I searched through my great-grandpa's memoirs for the devil in my bloodstream depression grabbed his throat and choked the life out of him slowly I've got the same blood coursing through my veins and it'll come for me eventually where is my mind? with your feet in the air and your head on the ground try this trick and spin it, yeah your head will collapse but there's nothing in it and you'll ask yourself where is my mind?

thunder just a young gun with a quick fuse I was uptight, wanna let loose I was dreaming of bigger things and wanna leave my own life behind not a yes sir, not a follower Fit the box, fit the mold have a seat in the foyer, take a number I was lightning before the thunder wolves without teeth I can see through you we are the same it's perfectly strange you run in my veins how can I keep you inside my lungs I breathe what is yours you breathe what is mine and I run from wolves I'll follow you if I could find assurance to leave you behind I know my better half would fade and all my doubt is a staircase for you opened out of this space the first step is the one you believe in the second one might be profound I'll follow you down through the eye of the storm control I paced around for hours on empty I jumped at the slightest of sounds and I couldn't stand the person inside me I turned all the mirrors around I'm bigger than my body, I'm colder than this home I'm meaner than my demons, I'm bigger than these bones and all the kids cried out, "please stop, you're scaring me" I can't help this awful energy god damn right, you should be scared of me who is in control?